today I will #JustBe CREATIVE!

Let go of all past limitations, the ones you set for yourself as well as those set by others.  If you have the feeling you would like to do something, then you simply CAN.  Trust your intuition and follow your dreams and desires.  Know that if you set your intent on achieving something, you will undoubtedly achieve it.  Everyone who sits down in front of a piano for the first time will undoubtedly struggle to create harmony.  But when you sit in front of a piano to practice day in and day out you will improve, gradually yes, but also surely.  Be selfless and you will be unlimited.  Don’t worry about not being great at something.  Be sure to have fun and work hard for it is you who will reap the most benefit from your dedication to creation.

Set your intent.  Trust yourself.  Ask for help and receive it.  Help is the gift of LOVE others joyfully share with you.  Practice with passion and joy.  Share the gifts you have received, they are yours now to gift others.  This is what it means to be a conscious co-creator.  Sat Nam.  Love and Light!  180-

today I will #JustBe WHIMSICAL!

Rediscovery has been one of my favorite parts of the journey back to ONENESS.  Recently, I was reminded to face my biggest fears with childlike excitement and curiosity.  Those little things about yourself you are so scared to face – those little monsters under the bed is what you gave your power to!  You cast off bits of you in order to please others.  You sent so much of you so far away, you’ve actually forgotten your TRUE SELF!  You are not little any more!  You are not weak!  You are not powerless!  You are no longer any one’s victim!  The little bits of yourself that scared you so much, those parts you’ve never been able to look at and admit they ARE you and you are them – they’re not scary any more!  They are funny, cute, WHIMSICAL, adorable, and lovable!  Because they are all you!  And you’re just doing your very best to be the best you there ever was!

You denied the LIGHT that is you one bit at a time…until there was almost nothing left of you to shine at all!

Yes, I laugh loudly!  I love to laugh! Sat Nam.  Love and Light!  180-

today I will #JustBe UNLIMITED!

The purpose of getting clear is to create space to allow life to be through you and as you.  When you “get out of your own way,” through meditation and karma yoga, you receive all of the gifts nature is waiting to give you.   As we grow, we fill ourselves with so much of the past – fear, anger, sadness, attack, defense.  We come to depend on the past and our victim stories for a sense of identity.  And little by little we begin to crowd life out.  We fill ourselves with so much worry, stress and anxiety over the future, the NOW becomes only a mere stepping stone to getting there…constantly trying to get there, never wanting to be HERE and NOW, which is reality is the only time that has ever existed or will ever exist.

Sitting in silence and stillness you access the NOW, claim your Divine birthright of creation, and allow LIFE to flow through you, increasing the LIGHT you are able to hold, opening you up to unlimited opportunities and incredible synchronicity in the flow of perfect love.  Take a deep conscious breath, inhale deeply and exhale gently noting that you are alive, you are here, you are now, you ARE LIFE and all you will ever need is within. Anything you can dream of is possible.  Anything you can think you can achieve.  Sat Nam.  Love and Light.  180-

today I will #JustBe CLEAR!

One of the most enjoyable and effective methods I’ve found to get clear, grounded, and balanced is doing an eleven-minute Har Tantra Kundalini meditation.  You can listen to the Har Tantra for free here:https://simran-kaur-khalsa.bandcamp.com/album/tantric-har-har-haray-haree-wahe-guru.  The original is track 2.

Sitting in comfortable meditation pose, criss-cross applesauce, on the ground, on the Har you raise both arms above your head in a soft arc that meets above your crown chakra.  On the next Har, you lower them, keeping the same arc trajectory such that your elbows are tucked into your rib cage and your palms are facing up and are out to the sides of your body.  My Light Sister Gabrielle Bernstein has shared wonderful videos showing this motion on YouTube.  On the inhale we openly receive all of the grace and glory of LIFE and on the exhale we anchor these beautiful gifts deep within our heart and all around us, making the world a better place for all.  Breath on purpose!  Sat Nam.  Love and Light.  180-

today I will #JustBe SILENCE!

Wise men speak because they have something to say; fools because they have to say something.                                         – Plato

You might not be aware, but we waste an incredible amount of energy engaged in very low-vibrational energy speech such as gossip, criticism, attack, defense, fear, worry, and negativity.  Oftentimes, we don’t stop to THINK before we speak and thus we react unconsciously from a place of emotional victimhood as opposed to being able to RESPOND from a place of mental and emotional mastery.  Sai Baba encourages us to think before we speak and ask ourselves if what we are planning to say is APPROPRIATE and NECESSARY.  Will what you have to say IMPROVE UPON THE SILENCE?

When we speak less, from a place of truth, inspiration, and joy, when we do speak our words carry more weight and import because they carry more energy and a higher vibrational magnetism.  Every fear-based thought, attack thought, worry or negativity pollutes your AURA, which is your own personal sphere of energy radiation – Our self-created atmosphere.

Charge your words today consciously with LOVE, JOY, PEACE, BLISS, and HEALTH.  Make a conscious effort to inspire and uplift everyone you speak to today!  Sat Nam.  Love and Light.  180-

today I will #JustBe BLISS!

Each and every night, we fall asleep and die to the day behind us.  We enter a restorative state in our deepest unconsciousness and awaken refreshed to face the day before us.  It is this restorative state we seek to consciously realize through our meditation practice.  During meditation we actively listen to the sound of our HEART, hiding the secret of life deep within us.  Sitting in BLISS we realize we are not separate from nature, from everything that IS.  There’s only ONE everything.  With each in breath we inspire LOVE and LIFE.  Each exhalation anchors the Light deep within us, allowing us to shine brighter and brighter.  Each breath brings us more and more into the present moment and aligns us with the silent rhythm of the Cosmos.  BLISS is the amazing understanding that your very breath, that which you now inhale and exhale, is the very substance of the Divine realized into form…not simply air…but consciousness…the desire of LIFE to be…through you and as you.  Sit on purpose!  Sat Nam.  Love and Light!  180-  

today I will #JustBe ONE!

Borderline Personality Disorder

As an only child, I had to play by my self a lot.

One of my favorite games was Chinese checkers.

Of course, most of the time I had to play against my self.

I would start out being GREEN.  The opponent me was RED.

But if RED started to win, I would quickly remind my self that in reality I was both GREEN AND RED not GREEN OR RED.

So, the part of me that wanted to win at all costs would readily choose who I really was in order to accomplish the sweet end goal of winning.

Mind you, I never cheated…there really was no point when I could choose who I wanted to be depending on any given situation.

The real GREEN me could summon the opponent RED me at will, whenever there was a zero-sum game of win or lose to be played.  In the beginning, opponent RED me would go away when she was not needed.  But little by little, she began to hang around my life for longer and longer periods of time.  Her voice grew louder and louder.  Opponent RED me literally grew more powerful within my head than real GREEN me was.  Until the day, I don’t remember when, opponent RED me sort of decided to stay, period.

Somewhere along the line though, I got really confused…there were now two separate entities within me.  One, opponent RED me, speaking loudly over the other…constantly arguing and growing more abusive.  At times of distress or emotional upheaval, I could no longer discern which was my GREEN voice and which one was my make-belief opponent RED.  RED’s voice grew louder and louder, more and more abusive and intolerant of mistakes or losses.  And over time, the WINNER me sort of took over, drowning out the loser GREEN me we no longer needed.

I forgot there was another me, the original GREEN me who had actually invented the WINNER me to keep me company on lonely days…and this is the way I made my way through life, confused about who I really was for over 30 years.

I lived with a rabid tormentor within my head…constantly abusing me, berating me, putting me down, reminding me that I was all alone, that I was unloved and unlovable, that the world was against me, that the universe had turned its back on me, that I was odious and undeserving of anything good in this world.  Constantly reminding me, never letting me forget not even for a second, that I was nothing without opponent RED…I was only a loser without the WINNER me.

These are the symptoms manifested by this disorder:

–       Black and White thinking…difficulty accepting gray areas

–       Impulsive and risky behavior, such as risky driving, unsafe sex, gambling sprees, or illegal drug use (Shopaholic)

–       Awareness of destructive behavior, including self-injury, but sometimes feeling unable to change it

–       Wide mood swings

–       Short but intense episodes of anxiety or depression

–       Inappropriate anger and antagonistic behavior, sometimes escalating into physical fights

–       Difficulty controlling emotions or impulses

–       Suicidal behavior

–       Feeling misunderstood, neglected, alone, empty or hopeless

–       Fear of being abandoned

–       Feelings of self-hate and self-loathing

–       Insecure sense of who you are

–       Your self-image, self-identity or sense of self often rapidly changes (feel like a sieve)

–       You may view yourself as evil or bad, and sometimes you may feel as if you don’t exist at all.

–       An unstable self-image often leads to frequent changes in jobs, friendships, goals and values

–       Relationships are usually in turmoil.  You may idealize someone one moment and then abruptly and dramatically shift to fury and hate over perceived slights or even minor misunderstandings.

I hope my journey of healing will bring the Light and Love we all need to live our lives fully, in peace and joy, feeling absolutely adored.  Sat Nam.  Love and Light!  180-

today I will #JustBe RESPONSE!

Thinking about the emotional body as a silvery lake allows us to practice self-observation, detachment and disidentification from our emotions, which is the key to releasing, transmuting, and transcending our negative emotions so that we can respond consciously to every situation.  Everything that arises will surely pass…and remaining calm in the still and silent center of our BEING helps us realize we are not our emotions, we are not out of control, we do not have to defend, and we do not have to attack.  Yes, there is a storm of anger, fear, sadness and pain raging all around us and it is most deeply felt on the outer banks and periphery of our lives, but we do not have to live there!  Choose to live in the center of your BEING where the stillness and silence are realized.  LIGHT is all there is!  Realize deeply that if there is an emotional storm constantly raging within you, you will be unable to register the higher vibrational frequency of LOVE and LIGHT.  Learn to still your emotional field by taking a deep conscious breath and picturing yourself as a deep, calm, reflective pond…This practice will not only imprint stillness upon your emotional nature, it will allow you to get out of your own way that your LIGHT may shine brighter upon the world!  Sat Nam.  Love and Light!  180-

today I will #JustBe SPACE!

Empty space is not nothing; it is a powerful something.  Learn to see it.       – Garr Reynolds

Through yoga, meditation, photography, design and marketing I have come to intimately understand the power of SPACE; its creation, its function, and its utilization.  When we are so busy running around from place to place, speaking incessantly to others, feeling constantly guilty and embarrassed for past mistakes, worrying and perpetually stressing about the future and how to get there, we crowd out the NOW and we stop listening to our intuition giving up our power of co-creation with LIFE.  By consciously choosing to do the things I love and showing up on purpose every instant, I have learned to create space within me to allow LIFE to express through me without limitations.  I have so much more work to do and I can’t wait to see how much space I can create for LIFE within me, how much out of my way I can get, how much LIGHT and LOVE I can allow to fill me!  Breathe deeply today and create your own space!  Sat Nam.  Love and Light! 180-

today I will #JustBe EGO!

For about two years now, I’ve been actively reintegrating all parts of my SELF in an effort to evolve.  It might help you to know I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder when I was 19 years old.  This diagnosis was confirmed again at the age of 35.  Anyway, what every teacher, guru, friend, curriculum, workshop, and mentor seemed to always point to as the basis for suffering was Ego and ego’s creation, ILLUSION…Now, I was aware of the word ego from a high school class where I also learned about the id and the superego.  But I had never stopped to consider that EGO might have been driving my LIFE!  Preposterous!  I’m in charge of my life…Aren’t I?

Well it turns out they were correct.  Yes, ego is driving your life if you feel anything other than inner peace, joy, and love at the core of your BEING.  So, while I’ve been busy ego-eradicating with my beautiful Light Sister Gabby Bernstein, I’ve also been wondering how and when did this happen?  And if my ultimate goal is the realization of ONENESS, how could ego, a part of me, need eradicating?  On the one hand I was saying that I was Light and Love and only Light and Love.  Yet on the other hand I was saying there’s a little tiny part of me, sort of like a parasite, that I must lock up and contain…a part of me that’s so destructive, manipulative and childish (and not in the awesome innocent way, but in the deviant and scary OMG way) that it would rather destroy me, its host, than behave!  

This is yet another one of our sneaky DUALITIES…yes, now I am not pointing the finger at another and whining “I’m the victim.”  Yes, the finger is now pointed inwardly, I am responsible.  EUREKA!  Yet within my Self I still found an “OTHER” and named it EGO.  And named it “Negative EGO.”  But like everything else, EGO is not negative.   EGO is not positive.  EGO just is.  And as long as everything that IS is allowed to perform its natural purpose and function you have the power and opportunity of co-creating with that energy.  LOVE is all there is.  The dark side of the Moon is only the illusion of a limited perspective.  So I’m no longer ego-eradicating, but rather EGOthanking.  Only by integrating all of your rays of LIGHT can you begin to grow brighter!  Sat Nam.  Love and Light!  180-